forgiven not forgotten

Dear God, i truly know what i did was wrong, i knew it from the first step i chose. But can i have one big apologize to what i have done. I truly could not control this. I truly couldnt do it. Only smile i want the most, just small sweet smile. Just like it used to be. But, can i still have it? can i still feel it? and if i dont get those, i understand all. I am the one causing this. I dont regret at all of what happen now, i know that's the way it goes. I get this day coz my yesterday, n i will get my tomorrow coz of today. For better or worse, i have to take it, i have to be brave and dare to face it. I am the only one who is in fault. No matter happend i must take the risk. How big the risk is, i have prepared for it. I am sorry i stole ur happiness. I have no reason for it, every reason will always non sense to say. Tomorrow, give ur brigh shine, brightening my days, my follow days. My sorry would mean nothing, but i only can say SORRY FOR ALL..